Everything and Nothing.

Now - 

Now, life is spring. Life is cut off t-shirts and popsicles and flip flops bare feet and bonfires and open sunroofs and new blooms. Life is mixing the darks and the lights together. Life is good devos and broccoli for dinner.

Life is a lot of different things. Forever changing. Challenging. 

Lately, this life has challenged me to give up the dream of an uncluttered world. To accept my days as they come, with every flaw and shortcoming. To not worry about the mosquitoes sucking the crap outta my shoulder and start growing with the season. To start listening to more instrumental music and stop wasting my energy wondering whether or not I'm adequate enough for this journey. It's challenging me to live above my circumstances, instead of drowning in them - simply find Jesus in the midst of it all.

To see Jesus in the hearts of others. To love how Jesus does.

To stop trying to take care of everything by my own strength - but to hand it over to God. Let Him guide me. Moment by moment.

This life seems to be passing quickly. Winter here, now gone. It's just doing its own thing right now. In a good way I guess. If that even makes sense. It's been kinda like a book that changes languages right in the middle for no apparent reason and without warning or anything. I'm learning that I'm fragile. Even when I'm trying not to be. Like, I'm emotionally vulnerable. Alright. That's cool. Basically, what I'm trying to say is - life is awesome and exciting and crazy and scary and confusing and everything and nothing. All crammed into a bottle and thrown out to sea. One full of tidal waves just waiting to crash onto the surface. If you still have no idea what any of this means, don't worry. I don't either.

Currently, I'm getting to know myself all over again. But I'd say it's safe to say, I'll never truly reach the point of knowing who I am completely. Inside and out. And somehow I'm okay with that. Because I'd say it's safe to assume none of us ever truly reach that point.

So here I am -  sitting under the night sky on my splintery-mosquito-infested front porch, wishing for pistachio and coffee gelato, moving the bookmark further along, washing my apples before I eat them just like Grandma taught me, flipping through photographs, realizing Ellen DeGeneres plays Dory in Finding Nemo, knowing most of the answers on my science test because I'm totally nerdalicious, and risking the entire ocean.

Here, things are good in the hood. What's it like over in your neck of the woods?